• Faith,  Pregnancy

    Unexpected Grief

    The Call I was surprised at the tone in my voice when I answered the doctors office calling to explain the test results weren’t what we had hoped. Chipper and hopeful, I pressed on as the nurse explained the doctor wanted to up the dosage of medication for the next cycle to see if my body would finally respond. I asked a couple of questions and hung up, still hopeful. A plan—I was grateful, am grateful, for a plan. It is something to expect and anticipate. With music on in the living room and freshly scrubbed roasting pans, I walked to the laundry room to check the next load. Unexpectedly,…

  • Faith,  Writing

    Lessons from the Waiting Room of Infertility

    This post was originally published on TrueWoman.com and you can find it here: Lessons from the Waiting Room of Infertility My husband and I have been trying to have children for the last four years. While the experience of infertility has taken us both on a journey neither of us wanted to travel, the experience continues to teach and refine our faith. Through these last four years, I have learned several valuable lessons in my walk with the Lord. Five Encouragements for ThoseStruggling with Infertility 1. Seek out community. Early on in our time of trying to have children, neither of us opened up to our local church community about…

  • Faith,  Writing

    How’d it go?

    Just yesterday I had someone ask me how the trip to New York went and it took me off guard. When we returned from New York, I got really sick. It was the kind of sick where I didn’t want to move or eat or drink. My mind was consumed with getting better and back to work, but I was left sitting on the couch watching the Great British Baking Show for longer than I know or would like to admit. So when I was asked how New York was, I realized I haven’t really spoken of it that much since we returned. There has been the occasional, “yeah, it…

  • Faith,  Uncategorized

    Rain

    I recently returned home to Nebraska after a few weeks away for a singing gig and the weather greeted me with rain. Lots and lots of rain. My drive back mainly consisted of farmland and I think that’s why when it rained for so long, I thought of Matthew 5:45, where Jesus says: …For He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. (ESV) Sometimes, there is a lie that creeps into my mind and I don’t realize it influences my thoughts until I speak it out loud. This happened recently when I was talking with a…

  • Faith,  Writing

    Wisdom Teeth and Pregnancy Tests

    That time I could tell you what I have to make an appointment to confirm, Just in order for you to yank these useless teeth from my jaw, It is negative, Always has been, May it not always be. Earlier this year, I had the joy of getting my wisdom teeth removed. For years, dentists have mentioned I may or may not need them removed but we “wouldn’t know until the next x-ray.” Well, late last December I was told they needed to be removed within the next year, so I set up an appointment with an oral surgeon down the road (literally) and anxiously awaited their departure. As I’ve…

  • Faith,  Writing

    Dawn

    I grew up in eastern Nebraska, but was born out west in Washington. Each summer, my parents always made a point to travel back to Washington to visit our extended relatives, which meant long drives during summer break. We still make the journey out. Though life has made it difficult to go every year, my parents make the trip at least once, driving from eastern Nebraska through Colorado, Wyoming, Montana, and Idaho, finally arriving in eastern Washington. Growing up, I remember my parents pointing out the landscape in each state we drove through as I sat in the back. We’d discuss the shades of green in the trees, the layers…

  • Faith

    Faithful

    When recalling our experiences over the last few years, I often mention how evidently I have seen and experienced God’s faithfulness to us. I haven’t always been able to form the thought into a cohesive sentence, but I will try to explain through my experiences. A couple of years ago, early on in our realization that our desire to start a family wouldn’t immediately be fulfilled, I was confused why we were okay. I’m sure this sounds strange, but it came from a time of observing others. I had seen, experienced, and read of families who’s lives were torn apart because they were unable to get pregnant. And here I was, sitting…

  • Faith,  Uncategorized

    Let me rejoice

    However short the trip, I love being back in Evanston. It is the place Daniel and I called home for several years. Yesterday morning, I sat with dear friends at a church I hold close to my heart. I looked around before service began and thought about the people who came and went during our tenure and those who shaped us in ways they’ll probably never know. I love talking with Daniel about memories held in these places. We grew a lot as a couple in the years we spent here. We were knocked down by ourselves and others but we learned more about grace and forgiveness. The growth wasn’t…