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    Helping

    I get it, where do you even begin with helping? Yesterday, I posted three facts on infertility during this infertility awareness week and today I want to share a few things you can do to be of help to someone who is dealing with infertility. These are things I’ve learned as I’ve walked through infertility and as I’ve walked with others. Listen One of the best things you can do for a person is listen to them. Realize that it takes a lot of courage to open up to someone about infertility as there is a lot of false guilt surrounding the journey of infertility. When I say listen, I…

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    Hope in Hannah’s Infertility

    This post first appeared on True Woman, a blog of Revive Our Hearts. You can find the original post here: True Hope in Hannah’s Infertility The first time I studied the story of Hannah, I was an undergraduate student at Moody Bible Institute taking a class titled, “Biblical Theology of 1 Samuel.” In the last four and a half years of walking through infertility, I’ve seen more and more how this class transformed my faith. The Lord has often reminded me of the story of Hannah, Samuel’s mother, as a source of hope and encouragement in the deepest times of despair. A Dark Time We first find mention of Hannah in 1 Samuel 1. The…

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    Moldy Jam and Our Call to Hospitality

    This post was originally published on the True Woman Blog for Revive Our Hearts. You can find the original post here. After the guests left, I started putting dishes away, packing up leftovers, and finding lids for jam and jelly jars. As I found the appropriate lid for the strawberry jam, I looked inside to see a white substance along with the red. Immediately, I thought that butter had somehow entered the glass jar. But then it hit me: I served moldy jam. Moldy jam. I felt my cheeks warm and my heart race from embarrassment. Questions flooded my mind: Did they see? How could they not? What were they thinking?…

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    Welcoming 2018

    I don’t know about you, but this fall has been a whirlwind of life. I’ve found that in these busy moments, I hone in on what I value most and hope to accomplish with the time I possess. And this fall revealed and reaffirmed that reality. This process with infertility has, at times, shaken my core, my identity. Not because infertility has actually succeeded in shoving out a previously-defined personhood and replacing it with itself, but because of the very fact it has tried defining the entirety of my life in one word. At times, I’ve succumbed to the title and have spoken about this journey with the ease titles…

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    Thanksgiving

    I stood in our kitchen this morning and scrolled through social media posts of people preparing Thanksgiving Day meals as Daniel worked at our dining room table. All at once, I was overcome with immense gratitude for this season of life. It’s full of enriching friendships and fulfilling work—both blessings we don’t deserve but have received. For Daniel, it’s working as a Worship Pastor. Every week, he teaches congregants and team members truths of the Gospel through music. Every week, he meditates on the attributes of God through music. For me, it’s serving the church body. Every week, I get to meet with college-aged adults and learn more about who…

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    Three

    I wrote this before the month of our third anniversary trying to have children. I wrote almost as an act of protecting myself in fear that the date would be too difficult to process. But God, in His sovereignty, surrounded us with community and filled our sorrows with joy. It wasn’t in a grand gesture, but was in coffee dates and swim dates, in gardening and painting. He met and provided through the people He placed in our lives. Often when explaining to people that we’ve been trying to have kids for a while, I get a response of how hard it must be. But, something happens when I share…

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    fireflies in summertime

    When we lived in the Chicago area, I looked forward to the emergence of fireflies. Each summer it reminded me of my childhood summers in Nebraska. I love fireflies. I love walking around on summer nights with the flickering of light appearing around me. They are enchanting. Spending time outside is something we enjoy. When we moved to Nebraska last year, we realized that Lincoln has great biking trails and we have enjoyed exploring several trails in our area. When we found out that movie theaters in Nebraska cost a fraction of the price in Chicago, we naturally decided biking to a movie would make a great date! So we went,…

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    Rain

    I recently returned home to Nebraska after a few weeks away for a singing gig and the weather greeted me with rain. Lots and lots of rain. My drive back mainly consisted of farmland and I think that’s why when it rained for so long, I thought of Matthew 5:45, where Jesus says: …For He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. (ESV) Sometimes, there is a lie that creeps into my mind and I don’t realize it influences my thoughts until I speak it out loud. This happened recently when I was talking with a…